Summer = Bathing Suite Shopping

Ah the horrors.  Pre baby I felt totally comfortable walking around in my two pieces.  Post baby...I'd like to not even show up in a bathing suit period!  My thighs are such great friends with each other right now they like to hug each other as they pass by.  I have stretch marks on the outside of my thigh/hip area where I gained weight with Dayne.  Not to mention the stretch marks that slash down from my belly button to the neither regions.  I also have a flab of fat that I can easily grab a handful of - it jiggles when I run.  *shudders*

So for those reasons alone - my bikinis will not see the light of day this summer.  I went to Old N.avy to try on a few tankinis and one pieces to help hide the tummy area at the very least.  I took one look at myself in the mirror, took the suite off and walked back out to grab sports bras.  This is not going to happen - I am not going to let this weight settle and get comfortable with "well this is how I am now."

I've been walking with a girlfriend a few days a week and that has resulted in a little weight loss - I actually zipped up my "fat fat" jeans the other day.  They were tight in the thigh area BUT they did zip up without me having to hold my breath and lay on the bed with a wire hanger.  I see that as progress.

So in honor of my spiffy new sports bra - I signed up for Zu.mba classes at the local yoga studio.  I'll do it night a week with friends and hopefully see the weight come off a bit quicker than what walking is yielding.  I'll still walk - that I can do with Dayne - this one night a week will be a night for me.  Jason will watch Dayne and I get to go hopefully laugh and have fun while shaking the weight off.

In the meantime - I still need to find a bathing suite (and a great cover up) that I can use this summer.  My friend suggested I splurge a little and go buy something nice that I feel great in and that covers my trouble areas.  I usually buy from Tar.get, Old Na.vy and Vic.toria's Sec.ret - but maybe I'll spend some extra $$$ on a suite that really fits right and makes me feel good while I'm trying to get back to where I was prior to Dayne.  Suggestions?

Three Months

Dear Dayne,

Just typing out the title of this post made me tear up a little - I cannot believe you are three months already.  It reminds me of my pregnancy - there were times I felt like I was pregnant forever and other times it felt like I had just found out yesterday.  The same goes for you on the outside - it seems like you were just born yesterday and other times it seems strange to remember life without you in it.

This month brought on a lot of new things for you - and me!  It started off with my first Mother's Day - which was amazing.  You & Dad bought me a necklace with a Pandora charm of your birthstone.  We went on a walk at the nature preserve while Dad & Uncle Derek ran laps.  Mom's not doing much running these days - I can't with you in the stroller and even if I go solo I know I'll want to drop dead about 1/4 mile into it.  But I know this baby weight isn't going to lose itself.  More on that in another post.

You have become so much more alert (didn't think that was possible) and active this month.  You are awake more than you're asleep.  You are a morning person through & through.  We have to rouse you during the week when we're getting ready for work but once you're up you are all smiles and babbles.  I love to listen to you "talk" - you don't know the joy I get from hearing you go on and on about anything & everything.

Your smiles are the most rewarding thing in my life - to see your face light up when we see me and a smile take over will cause me to do anything you want.  I'm in some serious trouble later in life!  Truthfully, even your cries - which sometimes make me go crazy when I can't calm them - make my heart flutter.  You are leaning against me and asking me to comfort you.  I love knowing that sometimes all you want is mom, that mom knows, mom understands.

Your tummy time has paid off - you can lift your head up and check out your surroundings.  You give a squeal of delight when you do it too - bragging that you've mastered yet another milestone.  Also - the big milestone you reached this month - rolling over!  That moment will forever be etched in my memory.  You were on your activity mat rolling to your side, you had been able to roll from your back to your side since about one month.  Last month you were able to roll from your back to your tummy but you couldn't get your arm out from under you which made you more than a little cranky.  But I watched you roll from your back, to your side, to your tummy and then you moved your arm out of the way, pushed yourself up with your arms and looked around.  When you saw me grinning and squealing like a darn fool you joined in on the fun - pretty proud of yourself.

I look forward to each new milestone you reach - these past three months have been full of hard work, sleepless nights and tears (by both you & me) but it's all paying off.  Seeing you healthy, happy & thriving in the greatest reward.

Love,
Mommy

2 Years of Bliss

Well maybe not bliss - we have to be realistic here.  Jason & I have had our fair share of arguments and glares at each other but more often than not - we're two pretty content people.  Two years ago yesterday I said "I will" to Jason in front of our closest family & friends in a beautiful ceremony.  We had no idea what the next year would have in store for us.  Between trouble TTC, the loss of his grandmother, losing our first pregnancy, Jason losing his job and then finding out we were expecting again - time tested our bond.  But each hurdle we sailed over brought us closer together.  Jason & I know we have each others back.  No matter what life throws at us we go up to bat as a couple and know we can face it together.

Last year we went on a trip for our anniversary - it was a great move on our part.  We had been both been getting a little unsettled at how not easy it was TTC.  We needed to step away from the charting, temping and scheduled baby making to focus on us and our marriage.  Yes we wanted a baby but more than that - we needed each other.  Two weeks later we found out Jason had lost his job and that second line appeared on the HPT.  Tears of joy & sorrow were shed at the same time.  But yesterday my mother in law sent Jason & I a picture of Dayne - she watches him while we are both at work - and it reminded me of our journey and how far we've come.

(Happy Anniversary Mom & Dad)

Life is a fantastic ride and the tears only pave the road for joy & laughter. 

Star Wars

I admit - prior to meeting Jason I rolled my eyes at any mention of Star Wars.  I just didn't get it.  We had been dating for a while when the next installment of Star Wars had come out and Jason was thrilled to go see it in the theater.  I told him I had never seen the movies before - he stared at me like I had grown another head then vowed to change that.

He pulled out the DVD's of the earlier releases and we had a Star Wars marathon.  I was quickly drawn in and now I've seen all the movies several times.  Each time I watch it I grab something more from the story line I missed previously.  When we had Dayne, Jason started dreaming about finally owning (through Dayne of course) the At-At from Star Wars.  Not the small action figure - the giant toy that costs upwards of $100 or more.

So when I saw these adorable onesies in  Sandbox Clothing Etsy shop - I knew I had to have them for Dayne...and for Jason.  And yeah, kinda for myself too.

For $12 a onesie I thought it was pretty affordable!  Shipping took a bit longer than I had hopped - from the time I ordered it to the time I received it two weeks had gone by but there was a holiday weekend in there too so things may be faster during the standard week.  I was very impressed with the quality of the onesies.  These aren't lightweight onesies - they're made with 100% Cotton - 6.4 oz Interlock Ringspun.  (heavy duty stuff meant to last the test of time)  The graphics aren't handpress or heat transfers - they actually print the graphic on the onesie in order to last through many washes and to remain soft.

I washed both prior to putting Dayne in them and felt they washed well.  The onesie are a little small for the sizes given - I ordered a 3-6 month size - Dayne is currently wearing 0-3 and inching closer to 3-6 every day for length.  These fit him snuggly length wise, width wise it's perfect.  Dayne is a long kid though - but I had hoped that a size 3-6 would have lasted longer than I feel these will.  I have a feeling he'll only get a few wears out of them before they're too small.  I would order a size larger than you believe you will need.

Until he can tell us otherwise - I'm enjoying dictating his cute wardrobe.